I remember
A teaspoon of joy in the sink of life
Playing in the backwaters of recognition
Thinking that the "Super Friends" was worth more effort to be on time than school
This time served
These moments back then creating now
Open awareness to who I should value
You became my lucky quarter
I couldn't get through the day without your glimpse
King of wants and needs
You provided me with my personal Silk Road to get high on your ways
Let the sun be jealous of me staying inside
I knew that I was going to be like you one day
I wanted to fill shoes you hadn't even wore yet
Studied your gaze
Raised on your exhales
This teaspoon becomes a spatula
Serving time now knowing shadowed truths you hid from me
Didn't want to tell me that my pants were ripped in the crotch to keep me from humiliation
But I notice subtle breezes
Found remnants of lines
Indentation of control that seized the day and my future
Withheld evidence for reasons not warranted or subpoenaed
I am a refugee from a future you deemed to don on me
Rather than the dreams you told me to touch
You slap my hand and regurgitate the actions your boss bestowed on you
Knew my path was unconventional yet effective
Which were words in your vocabulary you couldn't fathom
Speechless and bewildered I ask "Why?"
You tore the longevity from me
Made me a fighter when I wanted love
Blasted my creativity for grittiness
Sanded the rustic tones to smoothed chords of your harmony
I hold a pitcher of resentment for you..
Why