Routines

Life coming at me moving dead slow
I don’t know what I want, really I don’t know
You always hope it’s finally over
And yeah I ended it on red rover 😂
I don’t know if I’m laughing cause they stay 2 steps ahead
And remind me who cares when I can’t tell if I am alive or dead
Enough said… that’d be a piece I wanna hear

Water splash my face… ok… you got me and a twin
I feel your pain too but never asked you to swim
Pusha T he played like he already know me
But I prefer truth over a delusional reality
… but maybe
Who think they can just terrorize me?

I don’t know who I am anymore
And I have to keep reminding myself
Like I don’t have anyone to do that for me anymore so like please stop locking my stuff up and release some so I can read and remind myself again

Throwing a pac at me? … hmmm what’s that? Cause what about my temper LMFAO yeah no breaking ceilings with bats
Don’t have to… Now I speak cat

How he knew I was gonna play this song… like I was READY TO DIE in his arms cause it felt like it had been so long
I’m tired of being the one strong
That’s not me or who I could be so
Before you wanna step on judgement again I suggest you speak closely…
Cause “Hov” know it wasn’t me! And when I saw nas timbs in the snow hallucination isn’t what it always be
It’s just how I see… clear or reality
No disrespect but I’m pretty sure now I used to or always had a ghost that walk with me

It feels like everyone sick of me.
Or can’t understand how writing help me see
What I feel would be in disrespect
Like they got it hanging over my neck?
Switching? It’s real when you up on deck
And I shouldn’t be responsible for crashing their wreck - I didn’t even know

Street?
Nah I came a long way from 13
Soul… I saw a fucked up church sign said we will give you new soul
Nah I want the one god gave me cause I worked hard on it and it was to heaven if I sould
Truth be told…
Nah but I thought I did but I would’ve had a kid before I promise God a before and after life bid… that’s like a childhood what my husband would be dream
But that perfect man check list is really real what it seem

I just need advice I guess cause like strangers in it vs real feelings is different
But on a happier note my nephew graduates marines next week… and I hope he didn’t get mad it was pacs words I wrote last week

(If I air out on the entire song it would be like 200 pages I’m sure) so I’ll come back to it
Is that the pac Lyfe?



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