Unforgiven
Out of 2 choices A to B, they never accept the one made by me
When you’re in a zone, they can flip and hit you thru a lyric or beat
But how did I ever become a bitch that’s so easy to defeat?
New blood… like this just some initiation
But prior I was seeing slow mo (I'm a soldier) so just lay out the situation
I mean what side was switched, other then finally being up
Nah this not some dismissive shit, I’m right here – wide awake - wassup?
When you talk about rules I wasn’t ever one to break
But now I’m unforgiven all because what mistake?
I’m wrong cause I won’t harbor or help?
Or am I wrong cause it’s just harder then what is felt?
Hanging on by a string, staring while in fetal from the hours of pain
Who you talking to homie, theres 9 levels to insane
A snake doesn’t lie down and give you his neck
Nor do they lie when they just can’t respect
Coil and bounce, most can spit thru venom
One of the most feared creatures on earth but poundage at most is like a 7
Went to my boys house the other day
He checked my eye color before he decided if I can stay
Yet these are the rules if you wanna play?
What is ANYTHING about life a game?
What’s the point of fortune if it comes with fame?
Then you feel like someone trying to change you…
That picture I looked so damn tacky… the outfit, the make up and hair due
But that’s the bitch you want slowly breathing hail mary to please who?
YOU?
Stop trying to change me, bitch I wasn’t broke
Meds have me so swollen I hate to eat so I hardly smoke
But let’s just clear up this joke
Just cause I’m white I’m not a witch or any spirit you evoke
My hands keep rubbing or try to turn to their prayer
I never offered to share my body like that though so it isn’t fair
“Crazy, crazy, crazy” like “Beware”
But like my mental is medicinal, I was always socially still there
If there is one type of person I no longer deal with or accept
It’s a control freak, wanting to control everybody and everything accept if it put them in debt
First warning signs is how they act around money
Next… how they act when they start acting funny
I had this one room mate go and change the lease so she was the major
I’m just like if we both live there and you didn’t have a job whose name was where shouldn’t have even phased her
I could understand respect and not smoking in the house
But when ever she tried to dictate what I did in my own room I almost punched her in the mouth
I didn’t though… bitch needed to be beat down in like 30 different ways
But because she was a friend I didn’t it just elevated to a new phase
I like rainy days… I always said they wouldn’t be welcomed if it wasn’t for pain
Cause sunny days aren’t so special when the burn outweigh the same
Bitter? Who me? You? You kid?
Neither… you just mad you didn’t do like I did
If ever I was to die… would it be with regret?
I doubt it, cause I know there is another side and which hand to bet
It’s taking me 6-10 hours just to fall asleep
But still, those type of secrets… I can’t and won’t keep
How do I hang up the phone when I didn’t even give them my number?
Better yet… How did they even get my slumber?
And I can’t even reach my peoples what it must be about
And I can’t get them off me but they have it so locked and twisted that it cause you to doubt
Nah Lord… wake me
Wake me up from this nightmare I get any time I try to go home
Wake me up from this insanity that I’m facing mostly alone
I want my body back, my god, my family, and religion
I don’t have time to air 1000 personalities out just cause you ill wishing
Like it’s your only mission
Unforgiven – Just cause you forgive doesn’t mean you go back for more
And just cause she a THOT with a good head – doesn’t mean she’s a whore
“Leave me Alone” I laughed… that’s what’s up
I miss you… I miss laughing… but I ain’t ever getting married w/out a prenup