A Disciple's Thread

[A Disciple]

Camron’s Voice

Flew the pigeon coup?
Vulture you just a stoop
Stupid mother fucker that believe his own lies too
Stupid mother fucker that think I won’t hit him 2
What part of NO do you not comprehend
What part of dough that’s not you in the end
I don’t even want you as my friend
Dope head prick you just a lick
You make me sick
And these set ups getting a little too thick
(He marks his bags with black marker)
You gross me out
You won’t go away
You just linger about
And won’t respect a word that I say
I can read a fortune but only see the future when told
I heard they can’t even auction the car your body gonna be found in
It will take weeks to find you and no one care cause bitch youre sould
And all this getting a little too old
Guys I ain’t even sleep with him since like 2005
The one that said oh oh ohhhh at her window and then came to my side
The one that flagged us down on fourth of July
The one that swear he tricked me but I been known he nothing but a lie
How they all knew before me and why?
I don’t like you I don’t like your world I can’t stand your touch
And you demanding and refusing to leave me alone is just a little too much
You finally went too far and such
That weed I got as a gift today smelled just like crack
And I ate a 2 huge bag of candy in my sleep this week just like it was a snack So my will just a little out of wack
And just for that alone my ex gonna be REAL real mad
Cause you all even lied and told him I play and lie about why and when I’m real sad
I don’t think I ever been this mad
I still don’t think you hear what I’m trying to say
But it’s all good cause soon you’ll be dead either way
Normally I would say you don’t have to die you just have to be dead to me
But this shit gone way too far and all I wish for it to see your dead body

THEYRE ATTACKING ME AGAIN

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I thought it said… “I don’t I don’t recall”

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Why my dad wasn’t on a heart monitor in the hospital?

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Cause his dad the police and his brother the feds and I’m tired as fuck of being this sick when I don’t have to be… I don’t like their twisted world and just want to be in mine again

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I can’t stand the now you see me now you don’t shit or the losing time or people being around me pretending to like me or being my friend. And like… it’s so fucked up

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He is in a third eye world and it makes me sick literally and I realized that’s probably why I got so sick cause anytime the type and tap shit - he’s around or tries to

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He said that about seeing me on the highway and I swear the very next day I noticed I had 2 different pairs of boots on that day

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I get mental and sick as fuck around him

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I don’t feel bad about being mean now cause he set me up intentionally with them bitches and for real, real, my life been hell

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I feel it didn’t have to be

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Sad as fuck tonight…

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Nah but I think them bitches (my old friends) flew him

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The only ones that I could see knew about Fourth of July

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And where I got gang raped that someone set up

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On the night I didn’t pay my parking ticket

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With no statutes in that state…

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And this invincible network and I ain’t done shit but try to break free

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They turn EVERYBODY on me

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I’ll be fine once they all just get away from me and leave me alone and stop switching and shit

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I want to stay with my bf even if we not together… just I have trust issues

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Please… like 5 people at most… smh… c bragged too much I just knew him like that and not until now since and like

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I’m no longer looking to who or what happened… what I want is to move on with my life and be happy without them manipulating people and beating me back down. I’m tied again too…

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Just why they allowed to kick my ass on a religious level anytime they feel like it?

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Just why they allowed to kick my ass on a religious level anytime they feel like it?

We don’t have the same tastes and it grosses me out

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How and why the fuck did he or they attach to my body?

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Need sleep… need to be myself… need my common sense back need my will back need my bf to be safe too cause they truly are run t to and demanding to come in between us

[Candy]

dope missed your ass yo asshole hehe

[A Disciple]

lol… hey guy!!!

[A Disciple]

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He said I fight like a dude… my brother showed me where the gun was when I was 14 before he moved back to ny. NOBODY but me ever protected me

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He thinks I’m some desperate trick bitch… please don’t let me forgive again.

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Why they think I have to be sevasted and betrayed to write

[A Disciple]

Everybody switch up on me… for money or just for fun?

[A Disciple]

Why I always forget and forgive… don’t let me this time please… I just want to be myself and stop posing and glitching and in a religion and culture that make me this sick. Ye

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Nah I don’t want to live in a delusion… I’m tired of being sick like this

[A Disciple]

What she was posting I thought could’ve been the wires

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I don’t suck with strangers in the shade… did once owe them nothing… heard I was “changed” mother fuckers for real!!!! My heart broke dead up… I can’t trust him and he think we still gonna be cool

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Fuck with* feel me? I don’t share my body in this way either -them out of and off me!!!! Who even care anymore… he don’t have to push me to the line to get bars or emotion… why he helped tear me down though

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Lost…

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Why everyone fucking with my head for fun though… I’m not gonna check the time every 5 minutes

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He came in on me like I was the enemy

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I don’t even want to talk right now but listening to applicable music…

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Why I have to live in this zone extra sick like this instead of mine?

[A Disciple]

Who keeps putting me thru this and why?

[A Disciple]

Been stuck in traffic like 2 hours now…

[A Disciple]

It feels like they found a new way to tie me to the bed… hours we been here then my phone says we get there at 9:43 then 27 min foh

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Tired TAF

[Candy]

how you been queenie

family life your child
ex partner

and recent partner's if yall got any

home life

looks like you still running ish since you got this diary thread to vent in..

[A Disciple]

I ain’t run shit… lol

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They can’t force me to play when I don’t want to

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Trust… my trust is so fucked!!!

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Idky he think I was desperate and pathetic though

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Yo candy… I ain’t been happy in a minute… my boss asked me to take a leave. People talking shit about me putting my business out there and like… just trying to stand up and know that’s never gonna happen with them forcing me to share my body with their spirits

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I ain’t cried yet and not gonna… so I’m doing way better - which reminds to go pawn this ring!

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I know someone trying to set me up but I don’t understand who or why and if they were watching the entire time how anybody’s confused

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Besides me

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The funny part is I don’t understand why they so mad? LoL I ain’t done nothing but be polite to them bitches smh

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I’m stupid I thought it’d be different with him out now but like…

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One day they’ll have to untie me

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Or I’ll figure out how to finally

[Candy]

ahh trying stand up is hard as ish..

sad to hear yo sad

you would actually think since haven this book of sorts thats progessive that there wouldnt be gossip to spread..



well stay hard at it ill chat for awhile in here hope it turns your frown upside down.. hehe

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lets do another verse..

topic:
it taste like lemon ammonia

[A Disciple]

He traded me in believing the street more than me so I sold the promise ring that he promised to just keep it real and not talk behind my back… it was that easy so I sold it for $20. I’m not gonna go soft… every time I try to help I make them worse… them old ladies though… I used to get so mad cause they ain’t think I was good enough but would hold my hands crying… now I just look at them and laugh… that s why 50 my face to cause that chain gang had me cracking up… even if he hated me he would still make me smile and get me thru the pain.

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Cause that’s what grey look like… that’s why I laughed

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Just trying to get myself back… and figure out who I now as the devastating repeatedly result

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Just tired of crying and believing

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I loved it @Candy thank you… he prolly don’t know B was talking in tongues last night and I heard every word

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Love lil Wayne too… just like… I have too many issues at once and it felt so gross again that I couldn’t even stand be touched again… and that why I stayed solid cause like I’m not really that scared of death because I know it got to be better than this… and like… it’s still taking me time to process

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Wait the cliche lesson? Sometimes the demon is the one actually trying the hardest to make God proud

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I ain’t do shit to nobody to deserve it all either

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I know… it sound so stupid but it’s really what’s up

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Just… not knowing what’s real too… keeps it spinning. The first person to bring up race gets punched in the mouth I have zero tolerance

[Candy]

aite set the thread up drop your verse in..

n il drop mine in next post