Until The End of Time
Insanity was always on the table and a horrible plight
I rather been dead to heaven than had to of fight this fight
Shit worse when they switching and I can’t even feel like myself
At first too innocent and trusting but this shit wasn’t ever about wealth
If only I knew what the fear was to all the rest
A position done changed and now I’m more than just a vest
When the world turns to slow mo or the clouds go speeding by
Its way easier than posing or being burned by the sky
If I had a heart left everything has changed
For the fear of knowing the exact for them I rearranged
Reminiscing of the days it was just me tripping in my low low
To the question of how many tried to put me below
I never for a second thought that Ced would ever leave, I thought he always had my back
But money change and friends estrange especially when under attack
From the days we used to rent uhauls cause we were too young for hertz
Or getting so fucked up we lock ourselves out the house in just boxers and shirts
I got to get it in order, I never thought I’d see the day I’d become so consumed
Some days it feels like the only thing that matters is a hit of white powder in which I ruined
All souls never came against me, all eyes was just a thang
But when them witches hit or the song would split just all the bullshit that writing bring
Yeah I stepped, I stepped to see… made a bed 8x and dismissed it as just acting crazy
Waiting in a parking lot I wrote a web of words in all red
But when no one ever came I threw it all out instead
Humiliation will curb a temper and bitch someone proper
Like getting drunk and blacking out only know one stopped her
Don’t think stay busy cause anytime I got a chance… I’d lose it like a victim of circumstance
Tired of forgiving and I don’t want to anymore and my heart is heavy cause my tug was to war
It’s the same thing when you swore you’d never pull it and almost did
I used to count the years I’d still be in serving that bid
They always tell you what they want but never mention what they forbid like the lonely life of a sad man that never got to live
Until the hands of time…