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My Life
My Life
https://youtu.be/nUpMv7toT1Y
“Youre bipolar? My mom bipolar too. Turn here”
“You sure you’re mom at work, there are no cars here”
“She here”
He got out and turned back around real quick
bang bang bang
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Intro singing
(Read over the rap parts)
I used to say 5 prayers every morning
Down to 2, 3 when the dessert starts yawning
I didn’t fight for me, I did it for you
I did it for 2, I didn’t do it to get thru
Went back for the hood when I forsook all the glory
Got left for dead in the hood now I’m telling another story
I still swear there are diamonds down here and that view will never change
Eyes wide shut walking for a third time ducking bullets like a target on a shooting range
Jesus pieces are just idols to remind us
And the elder be angels who get pissed and come down and find us
Peep that red eye so you know what I’m spitting is real
And maybe when I can admit it I will finally feel
Instead of acting and on best behavior
He ain’t ever grant me shit, not even this last favor
I’ve been in the darkest corners, been in bars with bass to my voice
And I don’t have a side while they assume I get a choice
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Four hoods surround me, everyone who see it wanna take them away
But then who’s gonna watch you all until I finish what I came here to say
Walking head down I’ll never bow to a stranger again
And in this life I ain’t ever even made a real friend
But I’m never out of bounds even when I’m acting out
And god can’t hear me, only when I shout
No doubt
And I can spit game, I could’ve taught you all a lot
But I ain’t trying to help either -/- you either with it or you not
And I’m sick of the bitches just begging to get in
Remember that line “just trying not to sin”
I’m not helping you all survive cause most people don’t deserve it
Who am I to say one day whether or not someone earned it
My heart is solid don’t you dare play me for a bitch, I’m with 2
And I don’t know how or why
I ain’t scared anymore but that’s only when I’m alone with a silent crew
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Pac never left me and I’m still spitting at biggie
I don’t know why I’m so mad I just know that gun is all 50
Cause I don’t know how to shoot
I ain’t the type to ever loot
I’m not the type that wanna see someone suffer
I’m just the type that you can’t think of another
My mind fucked probably when I got ptsd out in mb
I guess they assume it’s all good when they recognize or assume about me
Gmas prayer... Id memorize my favorite quotes on her cards and recite them as prayer
And I never shot up, we shoot down on the yard in case anyone care
Everyone assume like they just see a color
I ain’t ever been a mother
I would’ve never made that sacrifice not to be
So don’t tell me your advice when you think you see what you see
And nah I ain’t nice
Not to everyone
That’s why I gave him the 22
I just wanted peace and for him to say sorry and give it to you
I wanted you to realize that’s where I’m from too
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My life... my life... my life
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@Blanc
o I take you off block and see all you ever do is talk shit to me. What the fuck is your problem? Why you always up in here reading my shit for any way?
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That's me when I got out the hospital 11/5 2014, I'm trying to let old patterns go but i'm just saying I never did figure out how to make strangers that don't know me, never met me, never even had a conversation with me to SHUT THE FUCK UP and stop starting fights with me - you don't know me bitch.
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Someone did perfect it... thank you! It's the song I put on when I'm upset still to this day.
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The only thing is the 3 bangs in the begining - that IS exactly how it happened.
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Dying was like dreaming too... I was having life flashes but when the defrib hit it would switch to a nightmare that I was in the bathtub getting my throat sliced and then waterboarded under the tubs faucet... then my laugh flashes... then the defrib hit again and waterboarded while my throat was getting sliced. I guess cause I mustve been gurgling blood. Did you feel or get nightmares about the defrib too? It's some of the reason why I joke like death was easy and it didn't even hurt - it was coming back to life that was so hard and painful.
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The life flashes were ALL north myrtle beach 90-91... it's why I hold on even tighter besides the love I have for my family too. I just was really upset I didn't even know and feel like God was the only one that ever even wanted me to. I came home and just mad memories came rushing back...
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Life flashes* As you see I'm still fighting ghosts that swear my body is OURS and not MINE
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Yeah in the ambulance I woke up a second and heard the cop say I fell out the car saying me? shoe? trying not to laugh ... my step mom was real mean to me and it reminded me of conversations I'd have with my angels doing her dishes every night. Only I already had everything I needed that I bought myself - but I always wanted a family. Just I didn't know I already had one here and don't know if it's appropriate that I want them back?
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