Routines air out T2

Routines

So I can’t master the way that you throw
I see that you’re talking…
But information coming just a little too slow
But yo… that was low - a low so low I refuse to go..
But there really are some things that I do need to know
I’m not that thirsty and nah I don’t wanna be “in” so bad
Just looking for a reason and some security…
Something that’s been way too long since I’ve had
I’m so mad and at the same time still so sad
“If you had one wish…” and not one wish was bad
IDK how Pac would feel if he was here today
I feel like I let a partner down and now feel so blay
Would they love me or hate me if I exposed my whole heart
I didn’t mean to though and it wasn’t about playing some part
Cause like from the start… I didn’t have to be this crazy
But I’m a soulja, and being a soulja is something that come from the heart
And believe me dawg it’s hardly easy

And all that abusive shit done past hopefully
I don’t know the way records sell – but I know 12 years of past
And how many times I fell… and how help never last
And most of it was ugly
Nothing… I get nothing so now they ask me to call it
4:20am – ask him who he was going to go play ball with
If there is one sense learned what would that be?
When I fight with the other one - I can’t stand the feeling inside of me
If I had to go one way… and BOOM
Another firework just went off… but I’m not “concealed in my room”
I’m not talking from the cradle in the womb to the marker on my tomb
I’m talking until death to death bring us back together again so before I make that promise I really have to love the groom
And Dad. definitely not any time soon,,,

They just made abortion illegal today and from my own entrance I should be so happy
But then I wonder what happens when it’s rape and how fucked up that’d be
And nah I never asked for this walk… and nah I’m not just talking the talk
Just got de ja vu like a mother fucker… that’s twice today
I always say that’s when decisions are made so I just pray my God guide me the right way
You hate me, don’t think I don’t know
You’re just mad I’m quoting lines to prove I don’t, I won’t, and I didnt throw
And every letter I write, it’s practically always to you
So I guess I’m just reaching out again cause I have a decision to make and don’t know what to do.
"fuck currency" it's advice... why either way no one come thru?

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Yeah I heard you and you would know more than me like but amongst US and stuff? whats up wth that and why the wait?

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NOT to everybody but I need to learn before I make any moves

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What does your council say? Did you ask them? Cause believe me you don't wanna get dropped and judged

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He relaxes me and I can usually be myself... and I realized I need to add more slices to my pizza cause his slice too big and I'm scared it's gonna hurt

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The decision I have to make? What I wanna do with my 8... "the names change but the list remain the same" ... you should add that to Until the Hands of Time remix or my answer back and I do it.

No? Primarily because they are abusive!. They’re using pain to try to make me what they want me do… or to punish me away from the 4th of July week. It hurts very bad and I don’t respect someone that weak that would abuse someone

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Just cause they can too…

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Idk but it’s definitely not my god!!!

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My wish? Them bitches and their friends and family finally leave me alone especually on a personal and religious level too. You can’t sit there and demand to change my religion and god though… and when I get to the gates I’m pressing charges

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It amazing and miraculous but it’s abusive and not my god though

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Amazing that a bunch of strangers can even do this to me*

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In a bad way… I thought it was you guys and not them and I thought it was positive not the hell they dragged me to and thru

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I have no skills or skill set in this arena and like…

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PYRE over everything… he’s not the one making me crazy

https://youtu.be/eU5YtE8hKWQ

I’d say buck 5 if it wasn’t for that black love
And I’m not jealous just a topic I’m sick of hearing of
Shit popped off in the Waffle House before
More or less I’m usually surrounded by legal concealed carry and security bounce me around the door
What their hate for? Statutes… that’s what the debates were?
Felt 3 shots popped down and I put it on my Face book
Everyone gonna learn it’s not safe fucking with me
But when I was spitting tounges in the car that weekend -
Did I black it out cause it was too scary?
And I could read 500 times but can’t make sense of 900+ rhymes
If it’s my shot… then where is it at?
Cause I’m confused as all hell how this go with that
A pro quo… I just learned the definition like 2 days before he said it that day
And like… it’s nothing vicious but if there is money involved I might wanna learn how to play
Yeah they took his engineering license away
I can just imagine what you heard around the way anyway
Not this cycle, not this class, not this culture
You not gonna let me get beat down by some selfish vulture

I stopped writing and like between them and god I’m just really tired

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I don’t want to learn or be forced to live with some spirit I don’t even get along with in me

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I bled out like 2 times I think… you’d have to check my medical records… I’m not sure. But it is what hurts most…

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2 or 3 DNCs I can’t remember…

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It is really sad especially when nothing is even wrong

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No I’m not pregnant I just read how that sounded though

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A spirit and a dr and a witch… I know nothing about any of this except that when shit get real I usually get some type of glitch

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Because I’m not living a nightmare for the sick entertainment or power trip. There is literally no statutes and just promise me one day we gonna pull it

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Yo if them boys are dead I had nothing to do with it… check the ones that hired them if that’s were the 3 pops were

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Someone really need to get the bitch up out of and away from my family

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I sent it back 3x to get the sick shit off me… so we will see

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I guess it’s just a slow process