Dark thoughts

So yeah, not really about the rhymes or anything(if you looking for that then move along, you won't find it here), just needed to get some shit of my chest, I've allways found a respite in rap, sorry for dumping this on all of you.

So lately I've been fucked up, All my friends saying suck it up.
In the end I just muck it up. All that's left to say is Tough luck.
I feel like running amok, until somebody's body drops.
I don't care if it's mine I've had enough.

Still young enough, to become a beautiful corpse.
Dressed in a suit laying in the morgue,
Feeling like I got nothing left to live for.
This life is raw, leaving my arse sore.
Screaming:" What god, do you want more?!!"

I've got nothing left to give,
Everything forced to relive(mom's suicide)
Fighting my whole life, becoming combative.
When all I'm searching for is something transformative.
Finding a girl, love, family, job, anything collaborative,
To get me out of this ditch.

lastly, no worries, ain't suicidal, I've seen it more than once to know what that leaves behind, feelings just became abit too much for me to hold tight, hope you dont mind.

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**Every night forced to relive...

ffs. Can't even get this right...