Yo, im new here, i gotta question real quick. first off, i might as well tell you a lil bout me seein as how it might tie into the answer one way or another.
im 14 years old but age dont mean nothin, i was born in Queens, then moved to Bensonhurst, and unfortunately now i live in New Jersey, and i hate it. i hate the people, the quietness, it aint me, but its all good cuz my family is still in staten island and queens and i visit them every weekend so it dont bother me that much. my father died 10 days before i was born, and when i was 7, my 20 year old uncle - the only other father to me, was shot dead wit his friend and his friends mother in queens. thats when i started writin. i make beats too, i got myself a roland fantom g8, and i been playin piano since i was 5 so i got mad feel for it. my mother got remarried back in '09 and i dont get along with my stepfather - im not even allowed to call him dad - even if i wanted to, which i dont. i have very few friends and its only people i been tight wit for a while and i could trust. i hate everybody else just as much as they hate me. i get threatened and made fun of everyday just cuz i write lyrics. my obvious ambition is to be a rapper. and i personally think i have skill. i get opinions from other people, as well as my piano teacher who i've known for years and who can hook me up with free studio time, and damn near anybody i need. dudes got connections. i write all day every day, its my life, all i do. i write what i want to hear cuz i dont give a fuck about anyone else now anyway enough about me i need some help. now, once i start writin, im set for a good few hours or so without needin another idea. i can keep it goin for a while. but i have 2 main problems. firstly, for some reason when i rap what i wrote down over the beat it sounds weird and idk how to describe it. it kinda sounds like im sick of hearin myself in a way and i just want myself to shutup. but then when i read it to myself or say it quietly it sounds as good as i thought it would.
my second problem is that yeah once i get an idea i could keep it goin, but my problem is getting an idea. like obviously i have plenty to write about, but the first line is always the one that stumps me. i can never get the right feel for the first line or a good idea for it. i know im supposed to just feel the beat and look around me and all that but none of that works. anyone got any tips?
Thanks.
hit me up at frankiexbabezz96@aim.com if you want. Peace.
